Reinhard Gouw's Journal

Monday, December 3rd 2018 | I finally have the reason to officially announce that I am moving away soon. We made the payment. In around 2,5 months, precisely in mid February, I will pursue my further study in Melbourne, Australia. It's been the plan since I was still working on my final thesis in UC, and finally it's just around the corner. I...

Wednesday, September 12th 2018 | It's been more than 2 weeks since I decided to come out on this blog. As some of you may know, I added some people to my close friends list on Instagram, the ones who I think deserve to know, or just people who I think are open enough to know. Then I posted the link to my blog...

Tuesday, August 28th 2018 | Hello. I'm officially 24 as per yesterday. I expected nothing much out of this year, because as much as I'd hate to admit it, we all say "just another year, another birthday". But that's why I decided to change it. I decided to dare myself to do something I've been reluctant to do. First of all, thank you for...

Monday, April 16th 2018 | Some time ago, someone introduced me to these couple. They are Chella Man and MaryV. They may seem like a regular couple. But what intrigued me was the fact that Chella Man is actually a trans male. Honestly, I've never known any trans male before, only trans female. And it surprised me since Chella had these super masculine features....

Tuesday, April 10th 2018 | Sometimes being open minded can make you seem like you have double standard. Or worse, two-faced. This past few months, some of my closest friends who are couples were hitting rough path in their relationship. Being an open mind that I am, I try to be neutral. For me, no one is completely right nor completely wrong. No one...

Saturday, February 24th 2018 | Today I had a nice talk with someone. We talked about a lot of things. Religion, society, human, the purpose of living, god. Some points of the talk depressed me. We agreed that the world is an unfair place. Because some people just experienced horrible things that no one should have ever experienced. Like the explosion of firecracker factory...

Wednesday, February 21st 2018 | If I can record all of our phone calls and turn them into candies, I would. So whenever I feel dry and crave you, I will simply take them to comfort me. We are silly lovebirds. We are two souls carrying freshly plucked feelings, always longing for each other. Ridiculously missing right after meeting each other. Wanting to always...

Wednesday, January 24th 2018 | It might not be proper to say this via blog post. But think of it as a letter. If someday you read it, you'll know it's for you. More than 730 days. Wow, that's longer than I've ever imagined it would be. We started off in a rough place. And as not okay as that was for me, we...

Sunday, January 14th, 2018 | 2 weeks of 2018 has passed. I've been trying to remain calm and relaxed on everything that I do. As a few of my friends reminded me to. So a week ago, we had an LMSC gathering, and there's this session where we have to write each other's  +ness, along with what can be improved. Many of my...

Monday, January 1st 2018 | Peace in the middle of storm. Happy New Year, everyone. I hope 2018 will be one hell of a ride for you. Finally, I can sit down, relax, and write. No, I am not in my own comfy room with all the comfort. I am in the middle of a bazaar where I am the tenant relation and...