Reinhard Gouw's Journal

This song is into me right now.. T___T

雖然經常夢見你
Sui ran jing chang meng jian ni
Although I dream of you frequently
還是毫無頭緒
Hai shi hao wu tou xu
I still have no idea how to begin
外面正在下著雨
Wai mian zheng zai xia zhe yu
It's raining outside
今天是星期幾
Jin tian shi xing qi ji
What day is it today?
But I don't know 你去那裡
But I don't know ni qu na li
But I don't know where you've gone

雖然不曾懷疑你
Sui ran bu ceng huai yi ni
Although I've never doubted you
還是忐忑不定
Hai shi tan te bu ding
I still feel unsure, uneasy
誰是你的那個唯一
Shei shi ni de na ge wei yi
Who is your one and only?
原諒我懷疑自己
Yuan liang wo huai yi zi ji
Forgive me for my self-doubt

Chorus:
我明白
Wo ming bai
I know
我要的愛
Wo yao de ai
The love I want
會把我寵壞
Hui ba wo chong huai
Would spoil me
像一個小孩
Xiang yi ge xiao hai
Like a child
只懂在你懷裡壞
Zhi dong zai ni huai li huai
I only know to be bad in your arms

你要的愛
Ni yao de ai
The love you want
不只是依賴
Bu zhi shi yi lai
Would not just rely
要像個大男孩
Yao xiang ge da nan hai
Wanna be just like a big boy
風吹又日曬
Feng chui you ri shai
Feel the wind blow and the heat of the sun
生活自由自在
Sheng huo zi you zi zai
Your life unrestrained and carefree

I just took some personality tests, and I got these as results..

[1]

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

 Damn, I'm that seductive? LOL I do love to get flirty-flirty though.  For the education life, I think it's a little mistaken..haha


Then, deeper results about love life.


[2]

Are you still thinking about your ex?

[3]

Your Handwriting

 [4]

How well do you get along with others?

Last week was one crazy and tiring week.
We just started a real DBL practice on Monday, it feels a little impossible to finish learning the whole choreography in just a week. But still, we believe in God's help for us. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday the most tiring, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Wednesday we went to search for shoes.
Actually on Friday and Saturday I had to do the chemical remidial and physics test. It feels so hard to concentrate, I was focusing on DBL, studying that ton of choreo and I still have to struggle for school? Mehn, I could just go crazy. Just for the Saturday, I slept and woke up at 12 a.m., since I was so tired after the whole day. I tried to study and I fell asleep! And in the morning, I found myself getting crazy for doing the the test without any proper preparations. I studied a little just before the test and it turned out just fine for me. At least I didn't have to do any remidial. Another God's help in my school life..It's too much.

So here was our short journal:
Monday : We learned a short piece of On To The Next One
Tuesday : Opening concept, locking, and tried to learn some attraction
Wednesday : Out hunting for shoes
Thursday : Added more to the opening, krumping, shut-up2 song
Friday : More to the shut-up2, all the way to the locking, Money In The Bank
Saturday : Bounce, the ending, starting to think about something that can add up the clown bits
Sunday : Mixing, gathering, trying to arrange the clown bits
Monday : In the morning practicing for the clown part, and 1st performance in the evening!

It was a mad week, since we put all our energy, money, and time.
On Monday we thank God that the girls basketball team won, and that we could perform nicely. We never thought we would do it nicely looking at our practice time, but God's hand is there for us, once again. Thank God, thank God..
On Tuesday, we were tired and didn't have a practice in the morning and our performance wasn't as nice as the day before.
On Wednesday, finally our first day of rest after 9 days full of hard work and sweats all over.
Yesterday on Thursday, we danced again and we can give better than Tuesday, but unfortunately, the boys basketball team lost. We hope that they won't be down and can give even better than they could imagine.

On our rest day, the morning I was so bedloving that I stayed on top of the bed, and I was too lazy to get up and have some time with God. That day I was so sleepy all the time. But the thing that I found is that I did some crazy mistakes and ruined my day. Then I learned that starting the day without God is suicide.

Last night after seeing other school's performance, I got home, stayed in front of this PC, and when  I got to my room I couldn't find my DBL ID Card! I panicked and I was crazy. I couldn't find it anywhere, in car, on the laundry basket, in my bag, everywhere. Then I called my friends, my DBL captain, my DBL senior, and mehn, we already thought so far away about getting disqualified and being decreased on score and everything, about  possible consequences and things. You know, in the morning I scolded one of my team member 'cause he thought he lost the ID card. And look how karma works. Then I prayed, and my friend told me he saw me wearing it in my car if it wasn't just his memory, and I checked thoroughly in the car, and I FOUND IT!!! God, I was so happy and I phoned my friend and I just lay myself on the garden. God, I don't know what I would do if I didn't find it. So amazingly happened, I found it after I prayed. No joke! Mehn.

Then today..today I just got the report card and it's nice enough. The whole year in grade XI Science was always miracle for me. I always got nice scores, not like what I expected. I could pass some tests and projects I never thought I would. And it's always Him and His help. I really can't thank enough. I hated science, I should've entered social class from the beginning. But I can work this out with Him!

For lovey-dovey, I don't know what I really feel. Is it like, is it love, is it what. Sometimes I stress myself out thinking too much about me and my feelings, and sometimes I feel like I need some magic psychiatry to tell me what's happening inside. LOL I really wanna figure out and start handling it right away. I'm not gonna focus on it though, I'm gonna focus on DBL!

Praying for Petra 5's basketball and dance team.
Good luck for other schools too! Give the best, and God will do the rest.

AOG Crew, tralala trilili cikit aye~!
LOL. Finally after a long time we started to dance together again. And we're rebonding little by little to the way we used to. It should be even better now with the changes that happened to us!

This was us: