Today I watched this movie, a Thai drama: Crazy Little Thing Called Love.

Okay, I'm straightly being honest, I cried a lot during the movie because of the story pictured me in some parts. A little part, but the soundtrack strengthened it. I'm feeling this same thing that I really want to confess love, but I can't. I want that person to know how I really feel, but it's like everything and everyone is preventing me to. Most of the time I lied about my feelings. I never let out what's really inside. I never really talked exactly about everything, eyes to eyes. It's just by messages and it feels like wind. Every time I tried to finish it by messages, it always feels undone. It feels bad when you hold something inside and can't say it out loud. It's like having a fishbone on your throat the whole time but you can't let it out. Just someday, I wish I can say it before I can feel relieved. Though I still don't know if we are even going to have an eyes to eyes conversation ever again..


I don't know how much longer
That I can put up with everything
I've been hiding all the truth inside my heart

Every time we meet
Every time you turn to face me
Though I look indifferent
Do you know how much I have to force myself?


Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?
But I can't open my heart for anyone to know
Can you hear it?
My heart keeps waiting there for you
Waiting for you to open it
And hope you will realize, someday


Though I love you, Though I feel
But deep down inside, I don't dare to tell you


Every time we meet
Every time you turn to face me
Though I look indifferent
Do you know how much I have to force myself?


Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?
But I can't open my heart for anyone to know
Can you hear it?
My heart keeps waiting there for you
Waiting for you to open it
And hope you will realize, someday

Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?
But I can't open my heart for anyone to know
Can you hear it?
My heart keeps waiting there for you
Waiting for you to open it

And I hope you will realize
That this person loves you
Please I hope you will know
Someday 


I keep the word 'cause I'm not brave enough to say it. I know for sure that I will be able to let go of you once I have confessed everything right in front of you. I will just wait for the chance and the time to come. I wish I will be able to, someday..